I am happy to report in the last few weeks I have actually had dreams of having an alive baby.
Throughout the beginning of this pregnancy after Maisie, I was averaging about a dream a week that dealt with blood, death, miscarriage, etc. It wasn't fun to have dreams each week losing a baby of the appropriate size my apps were telling me baby measured that week. So on the flip side, now I realized I have actually had 2 dreams (that I can remember) of holding a little baby girl in my arms. Though one of them included me having no recollection of how the baby got there. Asking everyone around me, "Did I have a c-section? Did I get to deliver naturally? How did birth go?" It then included a full on analysis that somehow I had blacked out during the entire labor and delivery process to disassociate from the pain of my recent death and delivery of Maisie. Hmm... my sleeping mind is quite insightful.
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