For a while after Maisie died I would get a shock and a startle every time I saw a picture of a baby alive. I became accustomed instead to seeing pictures of babies who were no longer alive.
I think part of it was that I had joined this community of moms whose babies died and I was entrenched in learning this new aspect of life that I didn’t realize existed. Babies died?! Often? Before they were born? Shortly after they were born? Not SIDS? I needed to learn more, see more, compare stories, see pictures, do all the research. So as that became my new normal in life… when I went back to the “real world” and saw a picture of a baby that was alive - whoa! It took me by surprise. It took quite a while for pictures of alive babies not to flabbergast me. Probably as of the last month or so. (And that may be due in part to my news I shared in my IGTV video if you saw that.) Maisie - I wish we had pictures together when you were alive. I can't wait to see you moving, breathing, and feel your warmth when we are reunited in heaven.
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