I teach a music class for kids aged 0-5. I bring Isla & Lachlan with me to class. Maisie came to class too in utero last fall semester & the start of winter semester... (babies can hear in the womb! So she got to enjoy class with us.) Ok... where am I going with this. Well, now I have started a new spring semester with several new families who were not in class with me when I was pregnant. So... these families only see me with 2 kids. But I needed to tell them I actually have 3 kids.
Last week, our 3rd week of class, was when I felt I could open up & share. I am never scared to talk about Maisie; I always want to talk about Maisie. But sometimes I worry people won't understand... people will think I am weird for sharing this. But this is the very reason I am even more compelled to talk. This needs to be talked about & shared to bring about #stillbirthawareness. It happens, and if it was talked about more then maybe people would understand better & us mamas wouldn't feel so isolated. "There is no seamless way to weave this into class. But I need to tell you. I have these 2 kids here that you can see, but I also had a baby in December. Unfortunately, she was born still. She was supposed to join us in Februrary, and we wish she was in class with us again right now. We miss her. And I need to tell you about her because you are a part of my life right now. And... To say she lived, I also have to explain that she died. And what's harder than saying she died, is not acknowledging that she lived." Though... it didn't come out that clearly or concisely in class, but thank you to my families that listened. Thank you to those who said they were so sorry. Thank you for wishing she was here too. Thank you to the mom who knew Maisie last semester & took this opportunity to ask me a bunch of questions about what happened. I loved getting to answer those questions, to explain our story, take away your wondering, & just get to chat about my daughter.
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