#birthweek I wonder what I would be doing today if you hadn’t already gone. Only 3 more days until we were meant to meet you. I know I’d be super, super excited. I think I’d be a little nervous too for the scheduled c-section. I would have my hospital bag packed and ready to go. Probably a diaper bag ready for you too. Your car seat would be installed, ready to take you home. I’d have the infant boy and girl clothes out of storage - ready for either outcome after we’d be surprised by your gender. I would be talking up your arrival to your big brother and sister!! Hopefully Lachlan would have been sleeping through the night on his own now so mama could turn her focus to the infant waking/feeding/changing that was to come.
Everything has changed in so many ways since December 13, 2020 when we found out you were gone. Every step we have walked since has been completely different than the steps we were planning to take. This time, this year, this week, right now is HARD!! So. Very. Hard. I don’t know what to do. Except to simply be sad and think about you.
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