I was supposed to having a c-section right now. February 18, 2021 - 8am. See, here is even a screenshot showing my surgery got scheduled. Why was I having a scheduled c-section? Well because Isla ended up as an emergency c-section. After 9 hours of labor I started swelling instead of continuing to dilate, and I ended up with a fever. Thus, off to the surgery room we went. I attempted VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) with Lachlan. After 36 hours of labor, I again started swelling. They said given my history, and the length of my labor so far, it was probably time to call it and again head to surgery. So, this third time around we needed to just schedule the inevitable. I felt so weird about “picking” my child’s birthday. That is a pretty big thing to just choose. Baby’s due date was February 24, 2021 (my birthday is February 23rd!). Since I was 3 days early with Lachlan, they wanted to schedule something during Week 39 to avoid me going into labor first. I opted to not share a birthday with baby - I wished for the baby to have their own special day. I wanted the 20th because then Baby #3 would have been the 20th, Isla is June 23rd, and Lachlan is December 26th. I could keep track of birthdays easily just counting by 3’s to remember the days… 20, 23, 26. But February 20, 2021 is a Saturday and you can’t schedule a surgery on a Saturday. So ultimately we picked Thursday, February 18, 2021 because Ryans birthday is also on the 18th (of May). Plus, a Thursday meant Ryan wouldn’t have to take more time off of work since we’d be getting an extra weekend in there to start.
Unfortunately, we didn’t make it to this scheduled day. And I will never again have any qualms about having to pick a birthday (God willing). Instead I will only ever have prayers for baby to be born alive on whatever selected date it may be. p.s. Why do I refer to Maisie as baby in these types of post. Because we didn’t know she was a she yet! She was still just “baby” when all this planning was occurring.
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