Apparently March is PAL Awareness Month. The things you learn after you join this #worstclubever of #lifeafterstillbirth. PAL stands for Pregnancy After Loss.
While I am currently not pregnant after my loss of Maisie, I sure am praying to be blessed with another baby ASAP. All you mama's hoping for your PAL are in my prayers as well. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 In honor of PAL Awareness Month... My #lachlanleonfosthun was a pregnancy after TWO early 7 week miscarriages. So buddy was my first PAL. By that time I had learned to not truly consider myself pregnant until I got past the 7 week mark. I was still hopeful, and excited, and taking my vitamins, and being careful. But for me I didn't count on baby sticking around until I got past that milestone for myself. Fun fact: Lachlan was conceived a mere 2 weeks after my 2nd miscarriage. My trick to a sticky bean wasn't waiting (like I tried after the first miscarriage.) You know who else was a #pregnancyafterloss? My little Maisie!! I know you can barely see a line here... but I was testing super early and there IS a faint line. Promise. I had my third early (7 week) miscarriage at the end of May over Memorial Day weekend for our first attempt at a baby after Lachlan. But I got pregnant again in my first ovulation after that miscarriage (like I said in my post yesterday - my trick to my sticky bean wasn't waiting!). So Maisie was a #stickybean... because she made it past my 7 week miscarriage mark. We got past the 12 week first trimester milestone. She was perfect at her 20 week ultrasound... But she had her umbilical cord accident in utero & died. (I still can't believe I have to say these words.) Maisie, I'm not sure what pregnancy after your loss will look like. Because stillbirth in the third trimester was way, way, way different than my early miscarriages. So I am scared for my Pregnancy After Stillbirth Loss because I know it will be stressful. But I am also so excited, so hopeful, and want that next step so bad.
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